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The Girl Who Cried Wolf

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You know, you get what you deserve, sometimes.

I know that makes me sound like a bitch, but seriously she had it coming to her, and so did the designer for booking her unreliable ass.

That Primadonna never wants to work. I never see her at fittings, but she is always miraculously there for the show. When I first met the girl who cried wolf, I asked another model how come she’s never turned up for fittings.

She rolled her eyes and chuckled. “Ugh, her? She has food poisoning every time.”

“Really, and they fall for that?” I asked.

“No one wants a model to barf in their clothes.”

So when I saw her at an event some nights ago, the night before the fitting of our last event, I asked her about it.

“So, are you heading home soon?” It was 2am and our fitting was at 8.

“Nah, I’m having too much fun. Was going to head over to the party on 6th, Wanna come?”

“Seriously? How are you going to show up at the fitting in the morning?”

She smiled slyly and replied, “Honey, I don’t do fittings.”

The next morning, as promised, she wasn’t there. When I asked one of the assistants where she was, they said she had food poisoning. I was amazed.

So you can image my surprise when I showed up for this fitting and she was there. Had she not partied the night before this time? Nope, it definitely looked like she had. She was sitting in the back, hood over her head, eyes glossed over, but still model-ready.

When it was her turn, she lifted her head up and let out a slight groan. As she stood up for the fitting, she mumbled quietly to the entire room.

“Guys, I don’t feel too good. I think I need to go home.”

The model next to me rolled her eyes, but none of us said a word. We knew the score but were surprised she would go to such lengths.

The fitter stopped and looked at the designer, who sighed in irritation, then replied

“Well, you’re here now. Why don’t we go ahead and get you fitted and then you can be on your merry way.”

She nodded quietly and stood up for their measurements. As the fitter circled around her and the designer stood nearby, her face suddenly turned pale.

“Oh my god, I think she actually is sick!” one girl whispered.

Before I could look away, it happened. Brownish puke spewed all over the designer. As she tried to regain herself, her head turned and she got the fitter as well.

Everyone saw it, and although none of us laughed, we all drank to her misfortune afterwards.

We all stood there, in quiet shock. Was this really, fucking happening? Later that night, we took bets on whether or not we’d be seeing her in the show.

We didn’t.

 

Storeroom Vintage

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Sydney fashion has always had its own unique style, found between a mesh of relaxed beach culture infused with both European and American influences. At the forefront of Sydney’s tattered hipster fashion movement sits Storeroom Vintage. Found neatly hidden away just off Oxford Street, Storeroom Vintage is flourishing where so many others have failed. The vintage movement, as the title suggests, is very old, however eccentric owners Lee Bob and Wade Osborn have found a way to keep it fresh and interesting. From Harley Davidson tee shirts to denim dungarees, Storeroom Vintage has it all – from my own personal experience, every item in their store is a winner. The hardest part about shopping there is narrowing down your options to stay within your budget. My suggestion to you would be to fuck your budget and just buy it! Chances are if you don’t snatch up the opportunity, someone else will and remember, there are no duplicates when it comes to such rare vintage pieces. While AMFAM was down in Sydney, we were lucky enough to get the opportunity to interview the Storeroom Vintage boys.  So here you go.


Iconic Storeroom Vintage in front of the Iconic Storeroom Vintage USA Flag

What was the inspiration behind opening a vintage clothing store? We’ve always been passionate about vintage, and felt stores in Sydney were getting stale and lacking cool unique shit. 

Where do you source your clothes and is there anything in particular you look for when buying vintage?

All our clothes are sourced from the USA. Our style is a blend of 90s Hip Hop, Rock N Roll, 90s sports clothes and 90s Surf wear, so we tend to look for that kind of stuff. We have trashed denim, the sickest Harley Tshirts and rad, old school cartoon tees as well. We look for as rare and unique pieces as we can get our hands on.  

What is your favorite era for vintage clothing and why?

Early 90s is definitely our favourite era. We look back at old photos and we were literally wearing the same shit we wear now. Oversized surf tees, short abstract print boardies, 2pac tees and ripped denim. The 90s rule.

What kind of music do you like to play in your store and do you think this has an impact on your customers’ shopping behavior?

In the store you can expect to hear stuff like Neil Young, The Doors, Tom Petty, Pink Floyd, The Stones, Johnny Cash, Mac Demarco, The Smiths. Anything Rock from the 60s through to the 90s. And of course Hip Hop and Rap from the 90s. We like to provide easy listening and create a good vibe for the shoppers. We recently did a stall at Splendor In The Grass and played pretty loud Hip Hop for most of the weekend. We had people shopping as well as dancing. It was pretty rad.


Yeah Elvis!

Do you look to old movies and older pop culture for vintage style inspiration?  

Wayne and Garth are definitely an inspiration [Wayne’s World… party on!]. They are fashion Gods. Even in TV shows like Saved By The Bell they wore the sickest clothes. Alex Mack was rocking overalls and snapbacks before anyone. Also early Tarantino movies, which are obvious. Most 90s movies consist of epic clothes and in most of them we find inspiration.  

If you could style one famous celebrity in Storeroom Vintage gear, who would it be and what would you have them wear?

Can they be a supposedly dead celebrity, but still actually alive [in our minds]? Okay, cool… We’d love to get Tupac into our store, have him wearing a vintage rap tee with Tommy Hilfiger overalls and a Ralph Lauren bucket hat and get a picture in front of our giant American flag for our Instagram. Imagine how many likes that would get!  #instafamous Who is your target market and how do you go about marketing to them?  

Our target market is anyone who appreciates the importance of being an individual. Instagram has been such a great marketing tool for us and has been a vital part of growing our business.  

What is your vision for the future of Storeroom Vintage? We don’t like to think too far ahead but we will continue to provide epic vintage and expand our vintage empire. We won’t stop until ya Mum and Dad are rocking Store Room Vintage Threads.

Pin Up Girls. And boys?

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In the fashion world its rare to find something new and exciting that hasnt really been done before, now in steps a close friend of mine who also happens to be devilishly handsom, my mate Luke Flynn who has just announced the launch of its debut collection, paying homage to life in New York City.

Founded by friends Kym Naimo and Luke Flynn, Prize Pins references the history of vintage pins and their craftsmanship.

“New York is a special beast, we’re constantly inspired by the nuances that make up its identity, from the people to the art and architectire” says co-founder Luke Flynn. “We sought to design a collection of pins that would subtly enhance personal style, we like to call it garment spice.”

New York City-based Prize is a new take on a classic object through art, humor, and design. The debut collection, comprised of 12 distinctive lapel pins, is designed and manufactured entirely in the U.S.

Each pin in the debut collection is a thoughtful yet irreverent take on a classic object, with designs resembling a gold tooth, rare steak, one-eyed panther, “Do No Disturb” gravestone, “Applause” sign, and more. As a tribute to all things rare and coveted, Prize Pins are produced in limited runs of 100 or less.

Website: prizepins.com
Sales: kym@prizepins.com
Instagram: @prizepins

Up & Coming Designers You Need To Know

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By Michele Smith
Facebook – MicheleSmithMarketing

We all know the major players in the game … Vera Wang, Donna Karan, Calvin Klein to name just a few. Who are the new, up and coming designers? According to Vogue, these young designers are making waves and a name for themselves. Please meet the following talent whose work is taking center stage on the major runways and are even popular with the celebrities.

Matthew Williams






Matthew Williams, a New York City based designer, founded his line Alyx named after his adorable daughter in 2015. He has designed for popular celebrities such as Lady Gaga and Kanye West. William’s design line focuses on luxury basics with skater tees and perfectly cut flares.  Fashionistas can shop for the William’s line in trendy stores such as Maryam Nassir Zadeh, Dover Street Market, Machine-A, The Broken Arm and Colette. Williams also co-founded the creative collective streetwear line Been Trill. Matthew Williams is clearly an up-and-coming designer to watch.

Raul Solis






Designer Raul Solis, also based in New York City, truly created a bedtime-inspired line that he debuted in 2015. The line consists of pyjama-inflicted separates and some seriously plush coats. LRS Studio founded by Raul Solis; a designer, artist and stylist from Mexico, designs his line in the spirit of sculpture, photography, music, street and the nightclub culture. The pieces deliver a soft, minimal look and refine basic elements such as fullness, lightness with attitude.

Glenn Martens






Glenn Martens, is a 19 year-old designer based out of Paris (originally from Belgium). His lines originated being glitzy and glamourous. Today the designer has now gained the attention of Rhianna, who has sported the label’s sweeping coat-dress and the pin stripped suit on her latest tour. Martens’s line known as the Y/Project delivers sexual in small doses, while combined with a unisex offering. Martens is also one of the designers short-listed for the coveted LVMH prize and clearly, a designer who will be sure to shine during the fall fashion shows.

Shan Huq






New York based designer Shan Huq has a very creative line combining kids club-wear with pop culture references. The Tila Tequila portrait print is a great design for those who like the flashy and for the more conservative, the designer offers chunky patterned outerwear. Noted as the fashion week breakout designer, Shan Huq debuted his collection with teenagers in St. Andrew’s church in the Lower East Side, accompanied by music of Brittney Spears and Olive Garden Commercials. The everyday teenagers from small towns throughout America sported tracksuit bottoms, cargo shorts, plaid shirts, and short skirts with beaten-up sneakers.

Christelle Kocher






Christelle Kocher is one to watch with her line Koché, where couture meets noncore. This up and coming designer’s line focuses on haute techniques with fashionable items like everyday hoodies and tees. As the creative founder of Koché, the designer lives and Paris, while commuting back and forth from New York. Her multiple collections made a statement at spring fashion week and everyone in the fashion industry is expecting more to come this fall.

 

Celebrity Clothing Lines – Yay or Nay  

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By Kristopher Fraser

In the world of high fashion, it used to take years of extensive training to become a designer, and even once the training was obtained, it would take a tremendous amount of hard work to make it to the top of the design field to a position like creative director of Louis Vuitton, Gucci, or Calvin Klein. People spend their whole lives, thousands of dollars investing in the proper schools, and hours on the sewing machine in the hopes that they will someday become the next great designer to be a household name. It’s a designers dream to see their dress on a celebrity, and having the masses type their name into google.

Of course, not all those in the realm of luxury fashion are gifted with extensive years of training. Some just happen to already be on celebrity status, and as a result, they have an easy time getting their foot into the world of fashion design.

One such celebrity who has managed to make a major impression on the fashion world is Grammy-Award winning hip-hop star Kanye West.

West, whose guest list for his recent NYFW show included Vogue Editor-in-Chief Anna Wintour and Givenchy Creative Director Ricardo Tisci, essentially gave himself fashion authority as soon as he started to do sneaker collaborations with Adidas and launched his own Yeezus line. He recently caused quite the upset in the fashion community when he decided to stage a surprise fashion show on Wednesday, September 16, 2015. He received a lot of flack from many fashion editors, most notably Cathy Hornyn at New York Magazine who said of West “He is an amazing performer, but his merits as a designer are still in doubt. And it seems to me that the fashion world should be holding West’s feet to the fire — expecting more integrity and discipline from him. After all, he still seems to need our approval: There’s something touching about his desire to belong to the fashion establishment.”

West also caused a major upset because his surprise show ended up being staged at the same time as designer Anne Bowen’s and Naeem Khan’s shows at 12 p.m. Bowen and Khan, both incredibly skilled designers, took grave offense to West, who isn’t considered a real designer by many, staging a show during their timeslot. West’s show pulled audience members, buyers, and editors away from their shows they had been scheduled to attend, but just because they chose to attend his show instead doesn’t mean he’s really earned the respect of the fashion crowd. Once upon a time, West was mocked and beleaguered for attempting to do a women’s line, now he’s being hailed as a true Renaissance man and jack of all trades for being able to move between the worlds of music and fashion, although many don’t find him cut out for the latter.

West lacks what many celebrity designers before him have, attention to editing and quality of material. Sarah Jessica Parker, on the other hand, is a celebrity who knows how to do clothing. The former star of “Sex and the City” can boast that her SJP shoe collection landed Bloomingdale’s as its first retail partner earlier this year.

Her shoe collection now sits alongside Prada, Salvatore Ferragamo, and Gucci at Bloomingdale’s 59th and Lexington Avenue flagship store in Manhattan. Having played one of the biggest fashion icons in television history, and being a fashion icon herself, people turned out in droves when Parker’s shoe collection hit Bloomingdale’s. She isn’t the only celebrity who has managed to have a successful clothing line.

Take a look at Kanye’s fellow hip-hop stars Sean “P. Diddy” Combs and Shawn “Jay-Z” Carter. Combs’s Sean John line is a staple at Macy’s, and has a huge urban following from fans of his music. Carter’s Rocawear clothing line boasts sales of $700 million annually. On the other hand, Carter’s wife Beyonce Knowles is in that category of music stars whose fashion lines have failed.

In 2011, Knowles launched House of Dereon, a line done in collaboration with her mother Tina Knowles. While Beyonce is arguably the most powerful pop star in the world, pop stardom doesn’t translate into a top selling clothing line. House of Dereon quickly flopped. Knowles tried her hand at fashion again in 2012 in an attempt to revive House of Dereon, but again the line quickly fizzled out.

The lesson here is celebrities, just like regular designers, are hit or miss when it comes to the fashion collections. There are those who can successfully pull off a clothing line, like Sarah Jessica Parker, Jay-Z, and P. Diddy, and there are those who should stick to entertainment, like Kanye West and Beyonce. The world of fashion design should usually be left to the trained designers, but, sometimes celebrities can strike it out of the park.

Like all business endeavors, sometimes you fail, sometimes you succeed. There is no magic formula for a great collection, it just takes talent, hard work, and perseverance.

NYFW Highlights

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By Michele Smith
Facebook – MicheleSmithMarketing

With New York Fashion Week 2016 at and end and the masses flocking to London for round two, there were many highlights this year to say the very least. From Alexander Wang to Oscar de la Renta to Prouenza Schouler and the many others who debuted the infamous new lines; the impact was memorable and many of these hot designs are now on the top of the celebrity stylist’s shopping lists. While NYFW 2016 definitely had a top 10, the designers below were without question in the ranks.

Oscar de la Renta

The 2016 theme for this designer can be summarized in a flower …. a carnation. This was the favorite flower of Oscar de la Renta, as evidenced by the frequent placement of a cinnamon-dark carnation placed daily in his button hole. Peter Copping (Oscar de la Renta’s successor) picked up on this theme and the line featured the presence of carnation prints scattered on dresses, swathed skirts and frilled blouses. This show was definitely part of Copping’s modern view of femininity and sexuality. Copping exhibited nothing less than modern casualness and pared suits with jet-embroidered flat espadrilles, tied black ribbons to lilac and ice-blue ball gowns; and even dared to show glimpses of skin through black lace.




Alexander Wang

Alexander Wang celebrated his 10th anniversary in conjunction with this year’s fashion week. In front of the show, a merchant table sold his dosomething.org t-shirts and sweats, to benefit the organization’s youth and social change efforts. Inside the venue, the celebrity sightings were in full-force with Kanye West, Mary J. Blige, Nicki Minaj, and Lady Gaga to name just a few. The theme for this designer was what the modern cool girl downtown wants to wear and featured deconstructed denim, army surplus pieces, pajama silks, slip dresses and a show favorite – a shrunken satin bomber jacket.




Prouenza Schouler

Two words that describes the 2016 Prouenza Schouler line would be haute craft. The designer and partner Jack McCollough, presented a stunning collection for spring, solidifying their recent focus with texture, decoration and asymmetry. The starting point appeared to be Spain, with red, black and white color palettes; showcasing some of the most stellar dresses of the week. The designer’s line presented ruffles with exposed shoulders, pom-poms lining the edges of dresses and jackets in broderie anglaise.




Calvin Klein

The Calvin Klein Spring collection can be defined by slip dresses meeting grunge destruction. The dresses are slack at the bust with extra straps dangling in various ways, and also showcased knit versions, stitched with brass chains fray, disintegrating towards the hem. The largest surprise of the collection were photo prints of flowers that appeared on dresses, pants and trench coats. The new look on the runaway could easily be described as fashionably disorderly, with pant hems unraveled, jacket hems partially sliced away, sleeves extending almost to the fingertips or simply sliced away. The highlight however was the skimpy silk frocks that dominated this year’s New York Fashion Week.




The On Trend Hair Styles With Phoebe Tonkin

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By Gritty Pretty
@gritty_pretty

Our love for The Originals actress and Witchery Balance ambassador, Phoebe Tonkin, reached new heights with the exclusive cover shoot for Gritty Pretty Magazine’s latest spring 2015 issue.

Hair stylist, Keiren Street, who created these wearable looks on Tonkin gave us the low-down so you can recreate them home.

BRAIDS

“The key to this look is not to try hard at creating it,” says Street. “Essentially, it’s an inside-out braid but only using the top section of the head.”

1. When sectioning the top hair of the hair, use your eyebrows as a guide.

2. Braid down from the top of the head to the crown and secure.

3. To finish, spray Wella Professional Ocean Spritz or Joico Hair Shake to give this textured look a dishevelled finish.




HALF UP, HALF DOWN

“Girls on the go love this look,” says Street. “Perfect for post-work out or nonchalantly throwing it back, this hair style is simple, which is what makes it beautiful.” Street adds, “Overdone hair is just that – overdone!”

1. Just like the half braid, use your eye brows as a point to balance the top and bottom section.

2. Gather top section into a ponytail and secure using an elastic band.

3. Loosen the top section by running the palm of your hand over the section and towards the face.

SLICKED BACK

One of Street’s favourite looks, he says this style worn by Tonkin is “cool, understated and exudes a hint of mystery.”

1. To start, comb hair with a wide tooth comb.

2. Spray Wella SP Shine Define all over – focusing on the roots and mid-lengths – and continue combing through.

Hint: If you don’t have a shine serum or spray, Street recommends using Baby Oil. “It will give a sleek finish while still allowing the hair to retain its natural shape and volume. “Just don’t try this if you’re wearing silk as it can stain.”

All images:

Photography: Jake Terrey

Hair: Keiren Street

Makeup: Liz Kelsh

Styling: Hayley Bonham

Collage: Labyrinth of Collages

How To Become A Magazine Model

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By Michele Smith
Facebook – MicheleSmithMarketing

Although there are hundreds of fashion magazine publications, becoming a magazine model is not as easy as one would think. From fashion to runway to beauty, some of the top models in the business have had the privilege of working with the coveted fashion publication and very few models get to work at this level. What really goes on behind the scenes when it comes to modeling and getting in the door with a major fashion publication? There are a couple of steps an aspiring model can take to help them get noticed and get modeling work.

First and foremost, start out but putting together a LookBook. A LookBook is an essential model must-have and is a collection of photos highlighting a model’s work.  While these can be quite costly to put together, the book will showcase a model’s moods, various positions and fashions; which will give a magazine editor an idea of the model’s unique style. This will also assist them in deciding whether they want to utilize the model for the particular publication. The LookBook also needs to include close-up shots, photos with and without makeup.

An affordable way to start collecting photos (especially when you are just starting out), is to take on as many assignments on trade as possible. Many photographers who are starting out are the same boat as models, as they are also looking to build their portfolio. A magazine model can never have too many shots in their book, so this is the most affordable way to build/update a current collection. While this should go without saying, make sure the photos are from a professional photographer, not selfies from your iPhone.

When your LookBook is complete, it is now time to start shopping your photos to the local and National fashion magazines. Exposure here is key, because the more jobs that you have, the more success you will have establishing yourself as a magazine model. The next step is to start building a list of booking editors. A great way to do this is pick up the magazines you are interested in and looking up editor contact information on the masthead. While many do not list the booking editor, the masthead will list the publications contact information which a great first start. Once you have the correct contact information, start sending in photos for the editor’s consideration.

Last, but not least a website is another model marketing necessity. Your website should brand you and contain your complete online portfolio, which needs to include all of your photos. Update your photo section as often as you have new work. Please keep in mind that editors do not want to have their inbox bombarded with large megabyte photo files, so it is great to send a couple as a teaser and direct them to your full portfolio online. The website also needs to have your contact information and booking information. The combination of both of these methods (online presence and sending out photos), typically results in the most amount of work.

5 Iconic Moments In Fashion History

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By Simi Afroza Mira

As a former fashion model, I’d certainly like to boast that the birth of my modeling career was a total fashion heart-stopper, but alas, I can’t claim such fame. (Sigh.) However, there certainly have been some landmark movements in the fashion industry that have been so far-reaching, so iconic, that it changed the fashion industry forever – and affected even me, as a sixteen year old model in 2001, decades and decades later. Let’s revisit some of these moments and remember why they are so quintessential.

1. Twiggy – the first “Supermodel” 

This British model was iconic in the 1960’s, and is coined the world’s first “supermodel,” a term that is reserved for only the most well-known and successful models throughout the world. Let’s not talk about the hours and hours spent in front of the mirror, widening my eyes and willing my eyelashes to grow about 3 inches so I could mime Twiggy’s token wide, surprised eyes.

2. America’s Next Top Model – Modeling Made Accessible

This widely popular and well-known reality TV show created by an iconic supermodel herself – Tyra Banks – first aired in 2003, and for the first time ever, suddenly gave any girl who ever had any aspirations of modeling herself the opportunity to try – and try in front of millions of viewers. It gave girls all over the world the hope that they could become the next “big thing.” Suddenly everyone was given access to the world of modeling – the grueling photoshoots, the hours of makeup and hair time, the drama, and the good and the ugly of the modeling lifestyle. I remember watching the first season, while still in my modeling career. I’d study the TV, fascinated that my world was suddenly…out there. I’d eye-roll at some of the over-the-top drama, and nod solemnly along to some of the struggles the girls went through. “ANTM” has taught many a girl, (and okay me a little, too) the art of the “smize,” the “booch” and even the “tooch.” Keep it classy, Tyra.

3. The Plus-Size Model Movement

In the last five years, the acceptance and the push for a market for plus-size models in the fashion industry has gained ground and taken off. Beautiful, curvy, and alluring women, such as Ashely Graham, featured above, have shown the men and women of our culture that beauty can be found in many shapes and sizes. As a former model and fashion-conscious woman myself, this movement has been exhilarating for me to watch, and is so refreshing. While models who are very thin and lithe are beautiful, plus-size models who are curvy and voluptuous are also beautiful. That our culture is beginning to realize that there are many different sizes, types, and shapes to beauty is a breath of fresh air. Our differences in looks and size should be lauded and celebrated – one is not better than the other. I feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

4. The “Little Black Dress”  In the 1920’s, the renowned and classic Coco Chanel first gave the women of our world the “little black dress,” which suddenly made this dress accessible and available to any woman, in any social class or structure, anywhere. Before this iconic debut, wearing black dresses had been reserved only for women who were in mourning. With the introduction of this dress that has been replicated and coined for nearly every designer, in every decade, in the entire world, women were suddenly given the color black to wear just because.

5. Haute Couture – Fashion is Art 

Haute Couture, or “high fashion,” can be coined back as far as the 1700’s. It is astonishing in its beauty, magnificence, and resplendent uniqueness. Haute Couture is an important part of our culture because it shows us that the fashion industry isn’t just about selling clothes, or conforming to pop culture. Fashion can also be a stunning piece of valuable art, to be moved by, or inspired by. Something to never forget.

And really, who could forget that…?

Confessions Part 7: Brides, Brides & 27 More Brides

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By Agata Descroix – @agatacruz
An excerpt from her book – Confessions of An Autistic And Sexually Confused International Model

“Agata, you have a shooting for a bride magazine. You are going two days to Leon and you’re going to travel first class.” Again!? I have to put a little alarm now:
“Beeee dooo beeeee doooo beeee dooooo!”

At the agency, Damian listens carefully to my objections:
“Listen… I have fourteen brides’ pictures in my 30 pages book. Don’t you think it’s a little too much? I think it’s enough now, with the bridal things. I want to do Metropolitan*, I want to do Glitter*.”

He promises me that he is going to change his strategy but says I have no choice but go to Leon and shoot for this magazine. I am going to have a twenty-five pages editorial and get the cover. It’s a good deal. I pack my 48-hour bag and run to the bus station.

I didn’t know buses could be so fancy. The first class is a huge armchair in the most comfortable material and it can almost become a bed. I have a personal TV and a bag of (industrial) food and beverages for free. I have a pleasant and relaxing trip even though I am stressed because my skin looks awful. I have the instructions to get to the hotel in my email because nobody is going to pick me up. I have to walk to the Holiday Inn; it’s very close and just across a big avenue so it’s easy to find.
My heart beats really hard when I have to cross the street and walk alone in the dark to reach the hotel. I ask the receptionist for my room. The place seems almost empty. I open my huge suite and have no excitement to jump on the bed this time. I feel depressed.

I am in a little city, shooting for a bridal magazine and I look awful. I am all alone and the dinner is so light that I am afraid to wake up in the middle of the night craving something to eat. I can hardly sleep; I am very nervous and have terrible insomnia before waking up in an awful condition. I cut myself shaving my legs and have so many pimples all over my face that I could easily be mistaken with a calculator. Add to that huge dark circles and crappy hair.

This is how I look today. The clients and editors won’t see me until 11:00 am when my makeup is done. A driver picks me up at 8:00 am and brings me to a beauty salon. I almost don’t look at the guy because I am ashamed of how I look. The makeup artist and stylist are very nice and they slowly transform me into a bride-to-be.

Everybody gasp when I enter the big studio:

“Oh my god, she is beautiful!”

Thanks God they don’t realize how horrible I am under those thick foundation layers! We start to shoot at 12:00 because nobody is ready when we get to the studio. Nobody wants to tell me how many dresses I have to wear. It seems a lot and it irritates me because I want to know and be prepared: I always ask how many outfits I am going to wear to think about the poses and if I need to be more creative or not.

I end up shooting twenty-seven wedding gowns! Twenty-seven! It’s a LOT! Usually, editorials use between four and eight, maybe ten outfits. It’s slavery. At 4:00 pm, I am handed a lunch: A thick industrial pizza with garlic chimichurri sauce and coke. I want to throw up… I eat a slice of the awful pizza with tons of chimichurri to hide the pizza flavor. Afterwards, I drink a glass of coke to hide the garlic smell, and then two glasses of water to forget the coke flavor. I barely enter the first dress of the afternoon because my belly is massively bloated.

During this shoot, I have to be creative otherwise I will die of desperation and boredom. I create a little story for every single dress imagining the bride inside it; how would she react, and how would she love. I end up giving an unbelievable number of different poses and I think I am doing a good job! We end the shooting at 9:00 pm and they quickly drive me to the bus station to send me back to the capital. I don’t say anything because the team was nice and they really didn’t notice all those terrible details I saw but I am feeling really bad. I arrive at 1:00 am, exhausted, sick, with more pimples and I look like I am three-months pregnant because of the pizza dough fermenting into my stomach. I had never felt so disgusted of myself.

Confessions Of An Autistic & Sexually Confused International Model – Part 1
Confessions Of An Autistic & Sexually Confused International Model – Part 2
Confessions Of An Autistic & Sexually Confused International Model – Part 3
Confessions Of An Autistic & Sexually Confused International Model – Part 4
Confessions Of An Autistic & Sexually Confused International Model – Part 5
Confessions Of An Autistic & Sexually Confused International Model – Part 6
Confessions Of An Autistic & Sexually Confused International Model – Part 8
Confessions Of An Autistic & Sexually Confused International Model – Part 9
Confessions Of An Autistic & Sexually Confused International Model – Part 10